In a world of insane, complex, insecure, characters all fighting to fit into the world, there is always one that person that makes up for all the negativity you experience from people. It's these very people that change your outlook on life and make a lasting impression on the way you act, think and feel about people.
He’s mellow. He’s refined, spiritual, smart, seductive, and sexy, he’s ShawnQT. And no Not QT because he’s a cute-tee, but because it’s a part of his name…reversed. In the 5’6” frame lives a quiet, artistic, expressive, humble, loving, very freaky, kid-at-heart, who is experiencing his adult swim with his husband, his family, and his day job as a graphic designer. Nestled in the complexities of New Jersey, lives a man of great, positive simplicity that takes life as it comes. He’s a cartoon buff, loves to draw, and loves to love…He’s imaginative, gives birth to creativity, has acute resoluteness, a great sense of bravery, good understanding and very inventive. But don’t offend him! He’s overemotional, argumentative and nervous all in one…you know I bring out the worst in people…but on the flipside I had a very relaxing conversation with my blog Friend, ShawnQT.
Trent: So when did you realize you were gay?
Shawn: when my best friend put his hands down my pants
Trent: WHAT? When was this?
Shawn: I was 16.
Trent: oh wow…you're so gay for that! So had you dated girls before?
Shawn: I had a girlfriend at the time; he had a girlfriend at the time.
Trent: So had you had thoughts before?
Shawn: I don't think so, but I as I look back, I think had a fascination for dick.
Trent: Damn I thought I was bold! A butch man talkin’ about he has a fascination for dick, wow! You suck dick?
Shawn: of course
Trent: oh wow…are you a bottom?
Shawn: I wouldn't say that.
Trent: Well, what do you call it?
Shawn: I am a very sensual, sexual, erotic, and spiritual being.
Trent: that's a bottoms answer...
Shawn: So would you answer that question in the same way?
Trent: NO! Well, yeah I would. Fuck you Shawn!
Trent: we all know you have a crush on me!
Shawn: I think everyone has a crush on you. I have a beautiful boyfriend that I have a crush on.
Trent: Yes, I was getting to that. Tell me and the blogdom who you are. Who is ShawnQT and what is up with that name?
Shawn: Without giving out my last name... my name is Shawn TaQuan
Trent: That rhymes
Shawn: So I shortened my middle name to TQ. So my screename was going to be ShawnTQ, then a friend of mine said, why not ShawnQT?
Trent: You have the Ghetto urban boy name. I like that. Shawn-TaQuan.... So who are you? What do you do? What are you likes? Sell yourself...why should we like you?
Shawn: I'm a black man that is experiencing life, as well as creating it. I’m Confident, insecure, Living in love, and dying in fear. I'm a Graphic Designer, and "Renaissance" comes to mind as I can go down the list of things I'm interested in, R&B Music, Poetry, Cartoons, Numerology, Hip Hop Dancing, Collecting Action Figures, creating art, cultivating minds, eating out, and uplifting humanity.
Trent: Damn, I’m in love! Can we get married? You never did tell me my numbers...
Shawn: What’s your birthday?
Trent: March 13th
Shawn: Your a 9, one of the strongest numbers
Trent: okay so tell me more...
Shawn: I kind of figured u was a 9...
Trent: oh PAHLEASE
Shawn: well a person with the destiny number of a 9 is strong in Humanitarian affairs, strong in most human qualities, and the ability to do anything he wishes... it is through your interactions that you will push forward the future of humankind.
Trent: yes, what’s your number?
Shawn: my number is a 3, it is a number of self-expression, creativity, action and motivation. My being can only express, me, tell stories, discover, see beauty in others, and make them realize there own self expression. Many 9's sometimes don't reach their potential because it is a lot of responsibility.
Trent: I love responsibility…
Shawn: 9's enjoy people, that's why they are humanitarians. So are you are compatible with many.
Trent: Yes I enjoy good people. Not stupid ass ones. I hate fake bitches...So how is married life?
Shawn: Wonderful, couldn't ask for anything more.
Trent: so how long have you and the lucky man been together.
Shawn: A Year and 9 months! My longest relationship, ever!
Trent: So what’s the best thing about a relationship?
Shawn: Well I can say for mine is that we are very much a like; we have a lot of similarities. We are both Artist, both kids a heart, and we are both going through our [adult swim] together.
Trent: So you having a lot of similarities and a lot in common that doesn't clash?
Shawn: how could it?
Trent: I mean being alike you could easily get on each other’s nerves… I couldn't be with anyone else like me
Shawn: That's because your "TRENT" LOL
Trent: Whatever. I mean I truly think opposites attract, you value each other for the difference
Shawn: I don't see how having similar "positive" qualities can get on each other nerves.
Trent: thank you for clarifying that.
Shawn: He is more BLUNT than I am. He's a SHARK; I'm a dolphin, LOL.
Trent: okay, gotcha. You are a very mild mannered calmed man. That’s cute. Very nice...
Shawn: I ain’t no punk though.
Trent: Oh...but you suck dick!
Shawn: isn't sucking dick good Trent?
Trent: yes, especially when they nut on your face!
Shawn: all in your nose and between your teeth...
Trent: HELL NO
Trent: you are out of order!
Trent: I love sucking dick though. It's truly an art, a craft even.
Shawn: especially when you hold the shaft and just slowly lick around the head of it.
Trent: and massage the balls with the other hand..
Shawn: then slowly move your lips around it, and it slides down your tongueas it slides…
Trent: run over the opening of the tip with your tongue and slowly deep throat it...pull it out and lick around the balls and the area between the sack and the asshole....
Shawn: and then he quenches as he wraps his legs around your head as he slowly slides his dick in and out of your mouth…
Trent: Yes...we should give a class on this
Shawn: It would truly be a nirvana experience, LOL
Trent: I'm serious, a pamphlet even!
Shawn: so what did u think about my blog [adult swim]?
Trent: Yes, I read it in its entirety. It wasn't that much. But it definitely takes on a different perspective from the other kids' blogs. You're actually talking about something meaningful, tasteful. You don't have photo collages, and skinny talk, and all of the stuff that homosexuals get caught up in. So I like it. Your mild and that works....
Shawn: thanks... its like my small lil’ space to get out what lil’ bit of me I can express. My space to complain or celebrate my adult life, it helps when other people can relate to me. I think your blog, borderlines on your persona, and the real Trent Jackson. It's interesting to see how it goes back and forth
Trent: You think so?
Shawn: Your blog is all about the persona!
Shawn: I think the intimate moments on your blog are the ones people treasureand then we still love the loud, and expressive TRENT JACKSON, BIATCH
Trent: okay...So let me ask you this, do you think Gay relationships can last?
Shawn: That's a good question. I believe any relationship can last as long as there is a need for the other person in one's life... at times circumstances strengths or lessens the interactions of that relationship. I believe that if one creates a spiritual bond with the other, there will always be a space that will never go away.
Trent: love it! Why do you think Gay men base everything on image?Shawn: I think young people, gay or straight base everything on image.I don't see anything wrong with it...it just depends on what type of images you are using to dictate your thoughts, feelings, and actions. Case in point... why do guys want "Thugs"
Trent: because they associate being a thug with masculinity and because of what TV and Beyonce and them have fed the impressionable minds.
Shawn: Thug Life was glorified by the likes of Tupac, Snoop Dogg, and 50 cent.Much like Cowboys, much like mob gangsters, leather dressed Bikers. These are what I call the Hyper-Masculine. These images are interesting and intriguing to some, even if they have connections of negativity to them.
Trent: Yes! You are so right on it…so what do you base your liking on someone on?
Shawn: Hmmm…the connection. There is an energy that exists when two people meet.
Shawn: A Magnetic attraction.
Shawn: I look for that.
Trent: So what you're saying is, it doesn't matter what they look like, how they act, what they have on...etc
Shawn: What I'm saying is, all those things do matter. If someone looks attractive physically, if how they carry themselves is honorable and respectable, if what they have on is comfortable and inviting, then that enhances the attraction.
Trent: You got any gay brothers?
Shawn: LOL, nah.
Trent: More of these homos need to think like you. Like you are such a calm person, I can't be loud with you and ask you questions like how big your penis is and things of that nature, because you're so nice and I respect you so I can't cross the line with you!
Shawn: It's because we share a similar spirits. You have so much potential to be such a wonderful and great person; this blog is a blessing, not only to others, but to yourself. You don't want to know my dick size you would "gag".
Trent: is it that big Shawn? (In My deep voice…)
Shawn: Trent, come on, what you think?
Trent: You're 5'6" and how much do you weigh?
Shawn: I'm 135lbs
Trent: WOW…you can fit everything in Banana Republic!
Trent: So do you wear a magnum or magnum XL?
Shawn: I'm not really an intercourse type of guy all the time.
Trent: but if you were, what would it be?
Shawn: what brand?
Trent: You're being evasive!
Shawn: different brands have different sizes
Trent: Magnum or Magnum XL! It's not that hard Shawn, the black wrapper or the Gold one?
Shawn: sensitive fit? ribbed?
Trent: Fuck you
Shawn: LOL…I think most of the people want to know what Trent Jackson is packing?
Trent: For the record I do wear Magnum condoms for the width factor.... length wise they don’t really cut it...and fuck you bitches that think all fat boys have baby dicks.
Shawn: LOL, I guess your told them!
Trent: Yall like gettin' stretched? "How you doin'?"
Trent: Well most short skinny men do have big dicks
Shawn: that can be true
Trent: Moving right along…Are you into threesomes?
Shawn: LOL, I have had a threesome before, yes.
Trent: Do you like to eat ass?
Trent: spit or swallow?
Shawn: I DON'T SWALLOW!
Trent: lil' freak
Trent: So what’s your favorite dish?
Shawn: FRENCH FRIES!
Trent: fool that’s a side order
Shawn: its a dish for me
Trent: So can I come stay at your house when I come to New York?
Shawn: Sure, it’s still under renovation though…
Trent: Well when you finish, I can bring gifts!
Shawn: Just bring your book, I'll put it on my coffee table
Trent: I can come to New York to write...I always write better when I am in a new setting. Why haven't you bought my book yet?
Shawn: I'll get it.
Trent: OH PAHLEASE
Shawn: I always been asking my friends for some good gay literature.
Trent: I have hot sex scenes in my book! Several you can beat your dick off to..
Shawn: Do u masturbate to your own stories?
Trent: no, I have lived most of them.
Shawn: It's just like remembering your own experiences and jerking off right?
Trent: I usually masturbate to great sexual experiences of the past
Shawn: I feel u. do u talk about religion in your book?
Shawn: are u apart of a religion?
Trent: my own. I believe in God, I believe in doing good to people. Treating people with respect and dignity. I don't do organized religion per se
Shawn: I believe that all of life is about energy... thoughts materialized into reality. Becoming physical. Creating and evolving into new energy.
Shawn: You, me, all of us are just part of a bigger form of energy, GOD... all vibrating on different levels, positively and negatively, yet still vibrating as one. Who's your favorite Super Hero?
Trent: Um Wonder Woman
Shawn: LOL, why?
Trent: I don’t know. Maybe I am like Wonder Woman in my mind. I always liked women characters. Women raised me, so I gravitate and think like them
Shawn: I feel you.
Trent: like Jem was my favorite cartoon, next to the Jetsons and Scooby Doo
Shawn: I loved Jem, watched it all the time!
Trent: I want the DVD set
Shawn: My Boyfriend loves him some Jetsons he has the DVD. I wouldn't mind the Jem DVD set, don't tell no one though; damn this is an interview, LOL, and edit that out.
Trent: please you suck dick
Trent: what are you craving right now...
Shawn: to dance my azz off.
Trent: oh wow
Trent: you can dance?
Shawn: of course, I was on 106 and Park
Trent: oh yes.... must tell story
Shawn: Well I'm a huge TLC Fan and T-Boz and Chili went on 106 and Park to premiere there new video for "Girl Talk" off there 3-D album. So 106 & Park called a couple of fans they knew to come through to the show, dressed up in your best TLC gear, and represent. They also wanted to do a dance contest. SO.... they needed a Guys and Girls group. So I was the leader of the Guys team, and we danced to "Creep.” I danced my AZZ OFF! I changed up the dance a little bit, I really felt like a Celebrity. Chilli said I put a little "twang" in it.
Trent: Hmm..."How You Doin'?"
Shawn: In the end, it was a tie, but it was the biggest honor for me to dance for the beautiful ladies of TLC.
Trent: send me a copy of that tape
Shawn: I will.
Trent: What would you want to be doing this very moment if you weren’t interviewing with me?
Shawn: Playing my Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith video game, eating, or talking to my boyfriend. When in all actuality, I should be at my apartment painting, LOL.
Trent: You're a busy man...who are you blog friends
Shawn: besides you?
Shawn: There are a lot of people blogs I enjoy, but I am good friends with Larry
Trent: what’s his address?
Shawn: The Larry Lyons Experience
Trent: that sounds like drama
Trent: So do you know Frank Leon Roberts?
Shawn: yes I know of him from his blog. He's cool. He's actually going to be at Nuyorican Poets Cafe on June 25. Are you going to be there?
Trent: NO! I made a comment about that on his blog. I apparently didn't get that memo. So he better put me on the bill next year. And besides. I find him rather annoying!
Shawn: why do u find him annoying?
Trent: he runs his fuckin’ mouth way too much and he thinks he knows it all. Plus he's attractive. I think he and I would make a great couple…he’s so fascinating.
Shawn: LOL, you're funny!
Trent: I think it’s hot of him to be 22 and in PHD school. And he's a cute man. Very opinionated...I just don’t like the way he comes across
Shawn: yeah, actually Larry is 21 in his PHD as well, Intelligent and sexy is the new thing.Shawn: I have a PHD, LOL
Trent: And so do I. But I am going to Law School next...
Shawn: I don't think you caught that
Trent: Pretty Huge Dick
Trent: So what’s your 5 year plan
Shawn: in the next five years...I want to have a beautiful apartment, a job a little bit higher paying job than the one I have now, a good car, you know the foundations of general living. I want to continue being spiritually sound, and evolve as a strong black man. I want be like Trent, and have a book. A poetry book though, with pictures, LOL.
Trent: OH PAHLEASE!
Shawn: Have mind-blowing sex, and hopefully get over my obsession with French Fries.
Trent: I got that. So is your boyfriend apart of the equation in 5 years
Shawn: of course. Who are you going to interview next?
Trent: I want to interview Frank Leon Roberts…I think I am going to send that memo right now.
Shawn: be gentle with him
Trent: why, does he turn off easy?
Shawn: I don’t know, I guess we will find out
Trent: I love a challenge…what else are you itching to ask me
Shawn: hmmm, If you was invited to my [adult swim] pool party, what would you bring, and what would you wear?
Trent: I would bring my bag of tricks. I would wear a tank top and some boxer briefs and my Old Navy flip flops
Shawn: LOL, they are on sale u know
Trent: I got them at 2.99, I am surprised you didn’t ask me what is in m bag of tricks...
Shawn: that sounds like a whole other blog in itself!
Trent: You obviously got the memo! So how are you gonna end your night?
Shawn: call my boyfriend, watch some family guy with him, and fall asleep on the phone
Trent: You are tired for that
Shawn: say that again