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9.26.2005

Manic Monday Bitches!

Alright!!

How about a phenomenal weekend.

Shot Outs To: Jamal Franklin and his antics of an interview that he did with me! It was really cute, you made a nigga proud! Shawn-TaQuan, did you get my hot wheels? 215, Always a pleasure to see you in my inbox, and T, hmm…Erik Mehki is such a cute name.

Are those hoes not a mess? Desperate Housewives is too much, I can’t! Don’t ever have an anonymous person in the cellar at the bottom of the stairs feeding his ass a gourmet meal, butter included, on a silver tray with all of the fancy utensils. What was that about? It’s real interesting to see the blacks have the “crazy” drama on the show. How come they gotta be holding someone captive in the basement, that’s for the whites to do, I guess they couldn’t be too stereotypical, like have them murder someone or have Alfre Woodard all up in the spot pregnant by her someone other than her husband. I guess, I’ll be waiting next week…

I had a cute time with my family at the Barona Ranch Valley Resort & Casino over the weekend. We were celebrating my Uncle Marks and my mom’s birthday. She is turning 44 on Wednesday and he’ll be 50 on Thursday. I’m throwing them a surprise party Friday night…it’s gonna be fun.

Just please remind me to fly 2 hours away from home, next time. I am not really big on the road trips. My family is interesting to say the least. And my fresh out cousin Mark Jr., who likes to tell me about his all-night coochie eating sessions, is a mess. Talking about how he was high on X and all that. I am gonna have to tell him how I like to have cum shot on my face. LOL. ROFL…silly ass. What makes him think I want to hear about that? Anyway he lost about 400.00 on the crap table and I lost about 350.00. I came home with 10.00 LOL. Broke ass. That was enough for a fish box and a blunt. I was smart though. I put a block on my ATM card, so I wouldn’t be smokin (shooting dice or doubling down on the black jack table too much) up all the damn money. I just can’t wait until I go to NYC so I can hit up Atlantic City…

Why is Troop gonna be in concert on Friday? Why am I gonna be there?

I’m glad that for the most part all of the homosexual bloggers have been getting along. I’m glad. We’ve been leaving each other alone and staying away from the drama…that’s really good to experience…wow. How touching. I knew we could do it.

So I’ve ended my ties with Nate. I think it’s better for me to be single and remain that way until I can find someone who has my best interest at heart. I think at times as gay men we don’t want to be totally honest with ourselves. I think we always try to turn into what we know is gonna be a sex hookup into a relationship, and we know that ain’t gonna happen. Even though we talked and laid up with one another more than we swapped head, I knew that Nate was still trying to slide up in me, and he just didn’t understand that I’m not that type of guy. I want commitment, I want solidity, not some adam4adam-esque idea of what a relationship is suppose to be like, so no matter how I look at the situation, it wasn’t helpful to what I want and need to fit in my life right now.

I miss being in love. I miss, sharing myself intimately with someone. It’s almost been a year since I’ve been in a relationship, it’s been short and it’s been long…not rushing, and not patiently waiting either. So while I am thinking and reminiscing about what love is, what it use to be, and what it feels like, I’ll be thinking Take Me…(thanks Shawn…)


Take Me

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

glad to see that you had a good weekend. sorry you didnt hit it big. i enjoyed the read.
tlc

P. Alonzo Harris Jr. said...

hey there...

i feel you with regards to missing "loving" and "being loved" in the context of a relationship...

and when someone comes along and you think they are the one, you look a little closer and notice those imperfections which may put you in a position where you weigh choosing love while sacrificing a key value that you may hold...its not easy...

E said...

Heh...I see another DH fan in the house. Alfre was sure feeling up on that tenderoni Mechad, huh? Can't blame a sister for copping a feel...*LOL*.

I look forward to the rest of the season.

How nice of you to throw a surprise party for your Mom and uncle. I'm sure it'll be off the chain..:-)

Cash S. said...

LOL, i feel you in regards to the desperate house wives episode. That was some crazy stuff.

Clay said...

i read that interview .. it was a scandal -- lol