So they've been trying to get me to make a MySpace page for the longest, and I am like whatever on all of that. I mean I have a blog, a website, I don't really have time for any added data collecting services on the net...but I signed up like a sucker...and everybody is on there, even all that particular bitch that scratched up my BMW in high school, whore. Thats why her pussy is still stank now. Anyway, besides all that...check it out.
So I am having a chat with Alphonso and he is like "Is that Sunshine Anderson, that sings that song talking about Oprah and Stedman..." I am like no, Fonz, that would be Alicia Keys...Sunshine Anderson fell of because 'We Heard It All B4'
Anyway. I had a good weekend for the most part. Saturday, I lounged around all damn day, cause I was, still am tired...Me and Erika went and got some east Indian food and watched cheaters. Sunday she, I and my cousin Shanice went to church and went had brunch.
Shanice just celebrated her 17th Birthday the other day...and I mentioned her briefly. But today I brought her back to my house after brunch and we talked about family stuff...and I told her I was gay.
She didn't have the reaction I wanted...I was expecting the usual questions, you know, what type of guys you like, are you a top or a bottom, are you dating, etc. Whatever. None of that happened. I was like yuck, I wanted to be interrogated...but I introduced her to "Trent Jackson" since people in my family don't even know that I have a book out...I am a completely different person...and we're capturing that in my reality show. But I gave her a copy of my book and we talked about what life was like growing up, since she was so young when a lot of our family tragedy happened, she really was too young to understand the deal. But we're definitely going to be closer, since Markie, belled out on the family yet again...and I really wanted her to know the importance of our relationship to be positive, just because our parents don't get along doesn't mean we have to. We have to support one another and be there for another so we can not only set the example for them, but so we know how to be productive and healthy for our children.
It was a nice little exchange...I look forward to the healthy future. From this point I can only worry about me and my well-being. Whoever wants to come, can, but if not, don't.
I've been thinking a lot about relationships, since my third book is about love and relationships. A few of you have already have gotten the sample draft and love it so far, so I am building off of that so it can be out sometime next year...but it just really amazed me how people deal, accept, and compromise so much just to "have someone." Me and a close friend of mine were talking about a couple that we know and were just amazed at some of the things that go along in their relationship-and how people think that everything is all cool on the outside, but it's totally different in the circle.
It even challenged me to examine my own values because I found out that one of my potentials has a drug problem, a semi-serious one. It kinda flipped my weekend around because, you have a certain mind set of things that you don't want to deal with in a relationship. You care about a person, you respect a person, then you find out they're an addict. What are you to do? Just bail? I mean when you're too far into something you can't just leave...hmm. I was just thinking how your mate should be a reflection of who you are; thus what you feel about yourself. If this is true, why do we put up with things from others that we wouldn't allow ourselves to do?
And if marriage is till death do you part, why are so many muthafuckas divorced? Excuses are tools used by fools to create monuments of nothingness....
I don't know. Who really knows. I need someone to tell me some answers...or am I supposed to remain in the dark.
I smell an interview brewing....
Shout Me A Holler!
Fuck A Fake Bitch!
All that loud talking, lying, save that shit for your mammy, sounds like, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah uh huh, okay, whassup, SHUT UP!
Then Catch a brick.